i thought i love you

was waiting for you to

tell me what to do.

it was just

i hate you

i think

of  only myself.

the lights of the carnival

in their orange, yellow and blue

bath your smile

your embrace.

your radiance,

never out done,

envelops the fruit of

our labors.

The beautiful times

were in the darkness.

swallowed in neon

drowning our voices

into screams

over rhythms

tasting of

gin and lime

barley and water

and the perfume of your

skin

thick in my lungs.

you grab for my denim

i slide my hand under

the hem of your shirt along

the small of your back

taut and toned.

you lean your ear to

my lips gently

they meet.

i love this band!

they have never recorded this song.

it’s so much fun to be

watching.

Come dance with me!

Join me in the experience.

Come out of the shadows.

Join me in the light!

Come in to your own!

They will love you for you!

I can not.

come back with me.

at the beginning of a new day

we lay down

to rest.

i can not hold you

you can not be held.

I can not fulfill  the promises

i did not try hard enough to fulfill.

in the dawn

you walk away again, the

sun casting long shadows

into my eyes.

dew on the grass, and the blue birds

tell me your silhouette,

is all i get

to keep.